is knowing that the true nature of humanity is to LOVE.
It is the act and skill of honoring our innate emotional nature by allowing the full range of our emotions, from the most expansive to the most constrictive, to be acknowledged, expressed and released responsibly.
My Personal Story of Alchemy
In my early 20’s, I had an experience that changed my life forever. I was deeply entranced in my metaphysical and theological studies and was reading a book called St. Germain on Alchemy. One evening, after coming back from a very powerful, spiritual excursion, I decided to take a hot bath. I lit a candle, turned off the lights and played deep, soothing, meditative music. I was in a deep, contemplative state. I was at a crossroads in my life and knew it was time for me to start making new decisions and to move away from home on my own.
As I was moving more deeply into a meditative state, I started to have sudden bursts of emotion come out of me, from sadness and fear to joy and euphoria. It was a continual spectrum of emotions that kept purging out of me in which I experienced for a steady hour maybe two. It was the likings to a Kundalini experience and when the time came to where it seemed complete, I felt as if I was glowing. I could feel the palpable, electromagnetic energy all around me and the hairs stood up on my arms. I was in a state of bliss that is hard to describe but somehow through all this release I entered into a transcendent state. When I eventually looked down at my hand, I saw that the silver band ring I had on my finger was gold. I had a physical, tangible experience of Alchemy. I came to understand that through the portal of my emotions, I experienced transcendence.
Out of this experience, it became clear to me that our emotions are intended to liberate us rather than imprison. So much is misunderstood about our emotions and for the most part we are erroneously taught not to feel them.
“Children are to be seen not heard!” We label feelings, these are “bad” and these are “good”. Boys don’t cry and girls shouldn’t get angry. These are examples of how our emotions become imprisoning instead of liberating. In truth, the only “bad” or negative feelings are the ones we aren’t FEELING, and all feelings have “good” or positive outcomes when they are released and expressed appropriately.
To help you develop a healthier relationship with your emotional nature, I offer some pathways that I hope will inspire and liberate you on your journey to becoming more of your truer self.
